I need a job!

I need a job, but what kind of job do I want? I've only worked about 5 real jobs since i was 15. My first job was in a grocery store called Winn Dixie. I worked there from 15 to 18. As soon as I graduated high school i got a full time job at another grocery store called Food Lion. I worked at Food Lion for about 4 years. When i finally got sick of them taking advantage of me, i decided to take a pay cut and go to work with my friend in a fatory. I started making bubble wrap. What fun! After about 3 years in the bubble wrap industry, i went to work at a metal fabrication factory. We made parts for companies such as John Deere and Kubota. My main job there was to run a press break (a machine that bends metal). I liked the job itself. We had to read blueprints, figure out what dimensions to bend the parts at, set the machine up, and then bend them. I didn't really like the people. I couldn't connect with any of them. so honestly, i was sort of happy when they closed down and i was laid off.  My favorite job however was a temporary part time job at Gold's Gym. I was a CSSR (customer service sales rep) Pretty much i just made smoothies and greeted customers. So that's my job history, grocery store, machine operator, and customer service.
So basically I know what i don't want, well other than the gym job. Now i just don't know what i do want. No more grocery stores...I'm done with that. And i don't want a factory job... but i would take that before a grocery store job. So what else is out there? Guess i gotta get more motivation and look.

Why am I a Loser?

Why do I call myself The American Loser? Am I just a bum? Am I actually some business man who wants another blog to write so I'm making it all up? Do I really think that lowly of myself? Well, no, I don't think that lowly of myself. Actually I have quite a bit of pride. That's why I'm not releasing my true identity right yet. Or maybe that's just insecurity. So what makes me The American Loser.

To answer that question simply: I'm a realist. I'm looking at my position as I feel someone from the outside would look at me. Lets face it. We are all put on a scale acording to our financial status. And right now, I'm at the bottom of that status. When others look at me I'm a 26 year old man, living at home with his mom and dad, who has no job, no education, bad credit, and right now absolutely no motivation. What's that sound like to you? Yes, a loser. Now do I honestly feel that I am a loser? No. But like i said, i'm a realist.

Loser Reason #1: I Live With Mom and Dad

Ok, so I live at home with mom and dad. Its ok when you 19 or 20. But i'm 26, this is depressing as hell! I haven't always lived with good ol' mommy and daddy however. I actually moved out about a week after i graduated high school. I was always very independent. I wanted to do things my way. That was much easier when i had my own place. So when I graduated i bought a mobile home from my brother in law, found a roommate and moved out!

I stayed there for about 4 years. Then I was ready for another move. I then moved back in with Mom and Dad for about 6 months until I found a cheap apartment. Then i moved there for about 2 years. It was nice, but i wanted to go to school so i thought i'd move back in with mom and dad to save some money while going to school.

Loser Reason #2: I Have No Job

I absolutely can not stand it when someone ask "What do you do?" I hate that question. I'm a bum! I've been laid off for a little over a year. It's kind of an imbarrasing question to answer.

Its not that I'm lazy and don't want to work, I promise. I love staying busy. I've been working since was 15. I became a stocker at a local grocery store and I have been working ever since. Well up until I was laid off. To be honest with you I actually just started looking for a job here in the past few weeks. I thought it would be easy, i mean i've had a job all of my life. But it's not.



You're probably thinking that i'm a bum for spending a year of my life unemployed liveing off of the government and not looking for a job. Well, i wasn't just sitting on my butt. I promise. I tell you what. I'll write start another page to explain what i was doing all of that time. That is if i can figure out how all of this blogging stuff works.

Loser Reason #3: No Education

By no education, I don't mean I'm a drop out. I graduated high school. I was just never pushed to further my education. So I have no degree or extra training that can help me land a job. I think i'll save the details on this one. I'll fill you in later. It'a another blog entry's worth.

Loser Reason #4: Bad Credit

Yup. That too. Bad Credit. It's hard to keep your bills paid when you don't have a job. No, let me rephrase that: It's impossible to keep you bills paid when you don't have a job. And yes, I have collection agencies calling me ALL THE TIME!!!! Damn them. "hello mr _________   __________" click hang up. That's how it goes.

Loser Reason #5: Lack of Motivation

It's hard to keep yourself motivated. I know I have to find a job, but lying around waiting on one to come my way is much easier. It just lacks results. Its hard to get out there and put in applications. Especially when you fill out application after application and have no results. I absolutely hate filling out an application. And they are all online now. I can't go in and talk to someone anymore. They just say "fill out an application online." I've filled out tons of applications. I've actually had a few interviews. I actually had one place call me back, invite me in for an interview, then send me an email stating "you're not what we're looking for", then they called me back to take a test and then for another interview. I went up there 3 times and talked to someone. That was a month ago. Now: nothing. But i'm looking. Not as hard as i should be but i'm looking.

But motivation is a big thing. It's very easy to lose. so if you know someone who has no motivation, don't put them down for it. Pick them up. Try to motivate them in a positive way. Whether it's finding a job, or anything else.

TEST RESULTS:

Lives with mom and dad: ...................Check

No Job: ............................................Check

No Education: ...................................Check

Bad Credit: .......................................Check

No Motivation: ..................................Check

LOSER?...............................................YES!

Wouldn't you agree?

My first entry: March 22, 2011

I'm not really sure what I'm doing. I'm speaking mainly of this blog, but I guess that you could say that I'm talking about life in general as well. That's why I'm attempting to write a blog, because I'm not sure what else to do. I hear that you can make money with blogs. Can you? Probably so. Can I? Most likely not. But I will attempt to type my life out into blogs and see if anyone cares to read about it. I'll try to make it fun. I'll try to make it entertaining. I hope the boredom of my life will at least entertain you. You? Who are you? Who actually is reading this blog? No one. So as of right now, I am speaking to no one. Just my computer. Just this empty blog site.

When I first said I'm not really sure what to do I really meant that I'm not sure how to go about making a worthwhile blog. I'm not sure how to set up the homepage, or the profile. But I love to learn things. I love to try things out. I'm not sure what all I'm going to end up putting on this blog. As of right now, my name and face will be a mystery to the reader of this blog. In time, I may decide to let him, or her (the reader) know who The American Loser is. But, i sort of feel like the fun is that i could be anyone. Right now, I bet there are probably tons of 26 year old men who feel just like i do. Stuck. I'm stuck in a point in my life and i'm not sure where to go. I'm not sure what I should do. But I'm going to figure it out. And as I do, I will write it all in this blog for the world to see.

But first, lets get one thing straight. You may be thinking I'm some guy with no self esteem that feels sorry for himself and wants sympathy. You're right. Well, you're somewhat right. I don't want sympathy. But I do, at times, have low self esteem. And I do, at times, feel sorry for myself. But who doesn't sometimes?
But that's a problem that I'm working on for me. I'm going to try to figure out how to deal with it. And yes, I'm going to tell you all about it in this blog. So if you don't want to hear it, don't read this blog. I will complain, i might nag, i might vent, but i'll also rejoice. Just to let the world know how this random, faceless, nameless, American loser feels like. Because you might know someone in my position that feels just like i do.

I'm going to try my best to write at least 2 blog post a week. I'm not a blogger, so i'm not sure if i can keep up with it. But I've read that if you want to keep an audience then you have to post regularly. So I will do my best.  And i am a very dedicated person. Ok I lie, I'm not that dedicated. But I really want to do this. So I will. So I'll talk to you at least by Thursday.