Wednesday, April 13, 2011

I don't know what's going on!!

Ok. So my hopes aren't all crushed. You remember i said i recieved an email about the Unilin job on my last post. It said that i didn't have "enough experience" Well, they called me yesterday to come in to take somekind of test. I'm not sure why they sent me an  email stating that i wasn't eligable for employment and then they want me to take a test, but oh well. I'm going to take it.. and we will see what happens!
The test is tomorrow, at the same location where i had the "interview" before. I'm going at 9 in the morning and hopefully something will come of it!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

No Luck Finding a Job

Ok, So i was really excited about my interview at Unilin Flooring Yesterday. I had high hopes. I mean it sounded like a pretty good paying job, and I knew someone that works there. That's how i've gotten most of the jobs that i've had, someone i know worked there. Today, however, I got an email. "Thank you for applying, blah blah blah, we're sorry but you do not have the experience we are looking for." COME ON! I was applying for a fork lift job. I drove a fork lift for a year at my last job! What more do i need? But oh well!
i haven't given up hope finding a job yet though. Even before I read that email, i was looking on the internet for jobs. There's absolutely nothing on Craigslist. Nothing but scams on there. Someone trying to get your credit information. Maybe i need to run a scam!
Well, thats it for today. I'll look around tomorrow, and maybe i'll find a job!

Monday, April 4, 2011

My first interview

Ok, so i woke up this morning excited. Excited about what? My job interview. I got up around 7:30 which, by the way, is extremely early for me. I got ready and piddled around until about 8:30. Then to Unilin i headed.
I started up my jeep and put it in reverse....I started up my jeep and PUT IT IN REVERSE!.... it wouldn't go into reverse? This is annoying! I try and try again. I can get it into any other gear but not into reverse. What the hell? I just spent $3500 putting a new engine in it (well my dad spent it, i'm paying him back..thanks dad!) Whatever, I put it in first and pulled through the yard. I didn't have time for that.
I pull in the parking lot and look around at all the cars and at the huge building. This place is a lot bigger than all the other places I've worked at before. I looked around for the office and found the visitor's parking. That must be the office in front of the visitors parking. Made sense to me. I picked a spot that was kindof up hill so that if i couldn't reverse i could just roll back out of the spot. I parked and went in.
Once inside i was directed to a room where 3 other people were already sitting. They were sitting at a table waiting. There were 2 men and 1 woman. We all had a little sheet of paper with company info on it that we were looking at.
Then Drenda walked in. She explained the deal to us. We were going to talk about the company, watch a video and then we were going to be interviewed individually. I really didn't care about learning about the company. I was there to get a job, not learn how laminate flooring was made!
After the informative, we were called 1 by 1 back to be interviewed. I went back and sat in a chair across from the saftey inspector. I don't remember his name.
He went over the basic questions that i think are all a load of crap. How long do you plan to be with the company if hired? How do you handle diffucult situations? Blah blah blah...
Then it was over.
They say it may take as long as 4 months to actually complete the hiring process. They said there are several interviews, as well as a test, and a plant walk through.
As of now, i have no idea how the interview went. I have a pretty good feeling about it, but i don't know how they felt. We'll see.
Wish me luck!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Better Days

OK, so I'm over myself today. Last night went better than i was expecting. Yesterday was just one of those down in the dump days. I ended up heading over to my friends house last night and playing a little Black Ops and watching Due Date..which is an awesome movie if you haven't seen it already.
Today was a good day. My girl friends brother had a new baby boy! Congratulations to them. I went to the gym, which is almost an everyday occurance for me, and i hung out with my girl friend for the rest of the day. We ended up going to my favorite resturaunt, Hams, and i got my favorite boneless wings. Then we went to the loack $1 theater and watched Black Swan, which is a crazy, but very good movie! If you haven't seen it, and you like "different" movies, then definately check it out.
Tomorrow morning, at 9:00 i have my first interview at Unilin, the flooring company, so wish me luck!!!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Sometimes It Hurts

Some days are worse than others. Some days I really do feel like a complete loser. The depression hits me like a ton of bricks and I can't get over the feeling. I wollow in self pitty even though I get angry at myself for doing it. Terrible thoughts run through my head. Things I'd never do but they seem like they would make things better. I want the easy way out, but i know its the wrong choice. Life is just moving too slowly for me right now.
I find myself shut up in my room making these four walls the extent of my world. I'll play on the computer for a little while, then I'll move over and turn on my Xbox and play it for a little while. Even playing video games makes me more depressed. The worse i feel about myself the worse i do on the video games. That's my outlet, and it's pissing me off, because some kid, probably in some other state, is better than me right now at this video game and he keeps killing me.
I had plans to go to my friends house with my girlfriend. My g/f is with her good friend who is in town. We were all going over to my friends house to hang out. I feel like i've been waiting all day for her to get her and let me know when. It's 10 min. after 9. They are still shopping, and doing crap. My friend made me feel like he didn't really want me coming over. He said: "just come over with them." Did i take that wrong, or did he not really want me coming over with out them. Either way, it's getting to me.
Days like this I'm glad I don't own a gun anymore. I'd be drived to do something terrible. Then i think, no, i wouldn't do that. I would go rob a bank. But i'd fuck that up too. I'd get cought. I'd go to jail and lose the one thing that i have that means anything to me right now: my girlfriend. So, lets just say it's a good think i don't have one anymore.
I often wonder how people get through this state of depression. I've always thought myself to be pretty strong. I'm breaking down. I'm having terrible thoughts. I know that they are just thoughts, but what about those who aren't as strong as I am? How do they cope.
On top of not having a job, living with my parents, blah blah blah, i feel like i don't have any friends either. Do you ever feel like that? I mean i do have friends, but i just sometimes they secretly don't like me and only hang out with me because i'm there. I feel like i'm just the other guy in the group and no one would care if i wasn't there. I've never been one to have a lot of friends. As a kid, my parents were so restrictive about who i hung out with that i was never able to have a close childhood friend. Only now am i learning the importance of being there for your friends. It's a little late.
I feel like i'm running a race, we're on the last lap of 20 and i'm in last place. What's the point? Just give up.
But that's not me. I don't give up. I may wollow in my own self pitty for a while, but i will pull myself out of it. Today is just one of those crappy days. I get depressed every once in a while. So what! who doesn't.
Today i have no confidence. I hope tomorrow I do.

Why So Long With No Job?

I've been unemployed for a little over a year now. To be honest with you, I haven't been looking for a job the entire time. "What a bum!" right? Well, I wasn't being lazy. I'm not the type of person that enjoys sitting around the house playing video games and playing on facebook all day, even though that's what it seems like I've been doing. So why did I take so long to start looking for a job?
I'm an adventurous person. I love to do things that most people haven't done. I'm still young in my career of seeking adventure, but I'm on my way do accomplishing many goals. So, when I was working my last job, in metal fabrication, i started pondering an idea. I wanted to go on a real adventure. I wanted to ride a bicycle, that i didn't have, across the USA. Now most of the things that i think of doing end the same way that they started: as simply an idea. Was this just another idea that would pass on? Then, the company shut its doors and I was unemployed.
Unemployment scares most people. I, however, looked at it as an opportunity. I was getting paid every week, I had nothing to do, and in this bad economy, it's hard to find a job. This was the perfect circumstances to make my adventure possible! I ran the idea across my girlfriend and after a little convincing, she was on board. So we spent the next 7 months planning OUR GREAT ADVENTURE!

Did I find a job?

So this past week, my friend Mike, told me that the company that he worked for was hiring. They make laminate hard wood floors. He told me the hours, and they work perfect with my school schedule. I don't really want a factory/warehouse job, but right now i can't really be too picky. The economy is terrible and every time i turn around i hear of someone else getting laid off. So I went online and applied. I mean what the heck, it couldn't hurt.
Friday, yesterday, i received a call from the company. The wanted me to come in for an interview. Sounds good! Maybe i can finally get a job and start making some money!!!!! I hope so!
So Monday, at 9:00, I have an interview at their office. Wish me luck!!!